Rambling

Another person down the drain
who was just having fun playing

the whole school calls me the good girl
but you took advantage of me
you never meant what you did
and now i pay your fee

i told you many times
Ive been used before
and you were the first person
that wouldn't use me and slam the door

but that meant nothing to you
you continued with your game
trying to sabotage me
looking back its such a shame

you backhanded things
things i didn't want to do
i was losing my goodness
all because of you

you took advantage of me
its still hard to believe
it was all fake
its still hard to conceive

to you i was nothing
except a bet and a slab of meat
that you just spit upon
and threw in the middle of the street

i never loved you
i loved someone that won't exist
i wish that i could take it all back
but thats just a stupid wish

I'm fine, I'm learning
that i could do better
but your words till hurt
like a full on header

i take them in
and let them go
now its time
to let you know

ya i was dumb
to let you play me
you say you wanna be friends
not in a million years or even 3

because your a jerk
thats all you'll ever be
and i don't forgive jerks
who try to use me

so go cry
gossip some more
tell the world
how I'm a bore

but I'm still standing
because you didn't realize
that i had something still
when we said our hellos and goodbyes

i had friends to stand by me
while yours are all fake
and i had parents to guide me
when you were a mistake

i feel sorry for you
that you have no life
that you had to force upon me
your lies and strife

i stand taller then yesterday
and stronger then i knew
and I'm walking away
with lessons i learned from you

you taught me some lessons
but you walk away the same
only knowing how to
continue playing your mind games

people stand beside me
and tell me I'm strong
and that I'm better off without you
how much you did me wrong

i could go on and on
calling you names
saying how you hurt me
how you put me to shame

but I'm stronger then that
I'm stronger then you
i have more integrity
and you know its true

you could be good at everything
but it doesn't mean a thing
if you hurt hearts in the process
it clips off your own wings

I'm ms Innocent again
and somehow they know the true you
the true liar and backstabber
and they know what you put me through

your not respected
in any degree
even when you hurt me
i still had the true me