Shes gone

She died
it was the 15th
it was July
i ran out of the house
i ran until my breath came ragged
and i couldn't press on
i don't recognize this place
its all darkness and shadows
i hear her laughter
and see her face
everywhere i look
its hard to understand
that this was for the best
she was like my mother
only my aunt
the world is confusing
without her to explain it
she is gone
and she will be forever
why did it have to be
the 15th
it was supposed to be a happy day
less than a week
from my nieces b-day
she just turned 1
shell never know her aunt
shell never know the real me
i shelled her up
inside of me
I'm different now
can i change it
do i want to
i don't think i do
she gone now it feels like yesterday
but it was many
many eternities ago
im not myself any more