LOST FEELINGS

Does my voice speak another language,
cause you don't seem to notice me,

do people even see the damage,
cause they look like they cant see,

do i always blame myself,
for what is happening at this moment,

should i speak to someone else,
about my self punishment,

why do i hate myself,
when i don't even know why i do,

why did i feel the feelings i felt,
when i knew no one would help me through,

why is it so hard to look you in the eye,
i cant speak to you cause i know you will lie,

i find myself all mixed up in my own world,
god i wish i wasn't this girl,

life hurts even when i don't think about it,
it pushes me against a wall and smashes me to bits,

why am i so tired and scared,
why doesn't anyone notice me cant they see I'm there,

i hate my life and what its done to me,
i cant speak to no one not even my family,

i escape with a sharp knife,
and with a tight grip i try to end my life,