These lies have gotten the best of me
Tonight I will sleep, but restlessly
When I awake in the night I will see your face
Before I close my eyes again.
Rejected from living while refusing to die
Remaining alone amidst the tears that I cry
Seeing truth where it never existed hurt too much
Before I refused to feel the pain.
Angry at knowing I’m shattered by you
Determined to see all the lies become true
Shame leaks through skin and memories past
Before all my hope was slain.
Believing accusations of guilt reassured
I’m somehow responsible for all I’ve endured
Fault is not mine, but I will take all the blame
Before I close my eyes again.
