Reality Abuses Fantasy

by The Plain Truth   Sep 26, 2004


My nightmares always smother my dreams,
Forcing me to wake up crying.
At times I feel I can not breathe,
Another form of dying.

Though I have issues,
Don't make the mistake of thinking I can't feel.
Everything I go through,
Isn't even real.

I say how my father abused me,
It's just another nightmare.
I put on that fake smile,
And suddenly you care.

I tell you of how I cry each night,
It's just another bad dream.
I pretend to be happy,
Though I have low self-esteem.

People tell me I'm beautiful,
I don't believe a word they say.
Before I changed the way I looked,
I was made fun of each day.

I am but a mind,
I have no heart.
All this ignorance,
Is tearing me apart.

These drops have no purpose,
Solely for attention.
Just another thing,
You thought you had to mention.

After all my fighting,
I'm still just another mistake.
Nothing could be wrong,
No matter how I ache.

I am the one you raised,
I must live up to my perfection.
You say my life is a nightmare,
Explaining my rejection.

The black clothing I wear,
It's just to prove I'm misunderstood.
Nothing has ever been wrong,
Nothing ever could.

Smiling in my pictures,
Laughing at your jokes.
Telling you I'm happy,
Useful only for a hoax.

'Breathe the air I gave you,
Stop your day dreaming.
Admit your life is perfect,
Stop your muffled screaming.'

So my life is perfect,
Now that is a dream.
Taking in the air,
With my muted screams.

Once again I'll tell you,
I am falling apart.
With every step I take,
It's tearing at my heart.

I want someone there,
To hold me in their arms.
No more deceiving me,
With their seductive charms.

I need a crying shoulder,
Please don't run from me.
You say you want to know everything,
Then don't leave me when you see.

Reality or fantasy,
I'm buried in scars so deep.
Living it awake,
Dreaming it asleep.
-Megan Schroeder 2004 ?

**I must say, this is my favorite piece. That is the only reason I put my last name, something I normally wouldn't do. I would much appreciate commenting or voting, it would mean a lot. **

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  • 20 years ago

    by The Plain Truth

    Thank You Miss Mary, that means a lot to me. I am going through an extremely hard time right now, and I have the love and comfort of my friends to help me through. Although I got your email, I may not be able to write back for ahile, but know that I'm not ignoring you. Thank you once again.

    Megan

  • 20 years ago

    by The Plain Truth

    Once again, just wow. Thank you so much! I didn`t know it was all that good, though it is my favorite hehe. I don`t have much time, but I will try and read through a few of your poems. In fact, I have a finished one that I haven`t had time to put on the computer...it`s a little more stressful around here that it usually is. Anyway, I`m so glad to hear that my poem helped you, that sure means a lot to me. Keep your chin up.

    Megan xxx

  • 20 years ago

    by Cara

    Everytime I log into this website I always find myself continuously looking at this poem. There's something about it that I absolutly adore and the fact that you're twelve totally floors me. You write like your 24!!! I'm sorry you go through this, truly I am but just know that you have a talent and if nothing matters to you, know that your poem helped someone and that someone was me :) Have a good day Megan
    Cara(same cara as above comment)

  • 20 years ago

    by The Plain Truth

    Thank you so much, Cara. I never knew I could reach someone`s heart like that. Wow, what you said really put a smile on this saddened day. Try and be strong.

    Megan xxx

  • 20 years ago

    by Cara

    I read this poem and felt myself in total awe. It was written so amzingly that I honestly cried. Not because I was or pittied you but because you ahve so much emotion ebhind your writing. it is amazing, don't stop writing!
    Cara

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