What end?

Trying so hard to hold
these tears in
its not easy, when
Noone is here to
hold my hand
through the thick and thin
Not trying to give up,
not trying to forget you
only if you knew,
I look back on all the years
i have known you,
and all the things we
both have gone through.
Trying to put two and two
together, trying to figure out
how to make us last forever.
It's not working, you see
you're not doing your part,
it's just me.
I laugh when your around,
the moment im alone,
I fall to the ground.
I cry silent tears, trying
to forget all these silent
fears.
Not knowing where to start,
trying to forget my heart
has beenn torn apart,
Why did this end this way ,
leaving me crying and alone
trying to find the right words
to say.
Turning away from the pain,
the strength i need to regain.
Alone agian, loving you is
something i may never get
through.