Why?

I never knew how much something meant to me until it was gone
And when it was gone I noticed it meant quite a bit to me and I wanted it back.
Maybe I’m just blind
And I can't see
Everything I want and need
My heart's going one way and my brain another
I feel so bad and I can't cry
No matter how hard I try
All I can so is just sit there with a big lump in my throat
Wishing it would all go away
And to have that one thing back with me
But I don't know how that’s going to happen
Because it all happened so fast
My friend just disappeared without saying goodbye
I ask myself, " WHY?"