My Solution

Mommy,
I looked into those eyes, the ones I've looked at always
They've always been so angry, filling my own with tears
I can't believe how miserable I'm making you these days
It's like I've grown up to become one of your worst fears.

I've gotten used to the way you hit me, and I guess that I
Deserve all the pain and the hurt that you put me through
I shouldn't be this way, and I deserve all the tears I cry
So I know that to make you happy, I need to say goodbye.

Daddy,
I look at that bottle, the one that's always in your hand
Wishing I could take away the sorrow you need to drown
I know you're life has been hard, but I'll never understand
How that bottle helps you pick up all your hopes thrown down.

I watch you drink away the night, knowing I'm to blame
For if I never messed up, you wouldn't need to drink anymore
When I look at your life, I know it can never be the same
But I'll try to fix it up…by breaking myself on the floor.

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I'm sorry for the pain I caused you both, I wish I could redo
Everything wrong I've done, mom, so I could wipe your eyes
And dad, I'm giving all I can to take that bottle away from you
My only option left, my solution for the best…my suicide.