Nothing, But Everything

-I am nothing.
I am worth nothing.
I do not care.
I see nothing.
But I feel everything.
Everything inside me cries.
I am here and living,
but inside I feel dead and buried.
My mouth is full of dirt,
my stomach twisted with worms.
I'm lonely,and afraid,
but no one seems to understand,
or even care......
A shadow is my figure,
a whisper is my voice.
I want my life to mean something.
I want to feel thought about.
I feel so alone,
yet I am surrounded by all this love.
Why do I feel this way?
I am sad and I don't know why.
I live a happy life,
and nothing is wrong.
I just can't understand why I feel so crushed,
like every part of me has been ripped apart......lost.....
never to become one piece again...
tears fill my eyes.
I try to forget this feeling inside me.
I put on a smile and act like I am happy......and everything is fine,
but really inside I am not ok.
Sometimes I feel so numb,
senseless......
I am slowly fading.
I don't remember who I am anymore.
I try to think,
but I choke........
on my weakness, sadness and anger,
coming straight from the pit of my stomach.
I feel like I am trapt in a box without holes.......
my own skin.
I don't know what to do,
what to say,
how to make it all go away........
all of these feelings.
I am so confused.
I can't take a deep breath.
I just want to get away!
Run.........run,run.
My pace quickens,
my heart beats faster.
Everything that surrounds me is darkness,
but all I do is stare at the gloom in front of my face.
It is my reflection.
I don't realize, not really caring.
My body starts to tremble,
I see a flash of light.
I blink and then everything is dark again.
I start to fall.........fall,
screams surround me,
and then I close my eyes.......
and it seems to disappear,
it's gone..........done.
Painlessly a weight is lifted.-