MY Mask

Even know i hate it
i still hurt inside

Right now I'm trying my best to hide it

I'm smiling alot in just one day

My eyes are swollen every night before i go to bed

I cant stop crying i don't know how

I don't want to end up all alone for the rest of my life because I'm being selfish

I want whats right for me not anyone else

I'm so tired of people telling me whats wrong and right

If you don't like what I'm doing then get out of my life

I hate being alone cause all i think about is how my baby died

When i wake up in the morning i put on my happy mask i wear all day

and when i get home it comes off

and the real me shows

Right now all i want to do is drink all my problems away

Its the only thing that helps i hate being myself way cant i be somebody else

One of these days am going to forget to put on my mask in the morning and then people will really see

How i feel

Do you really want to Know what its like for me?? To Be Me??

Its terrible i hate myself
I still hate being on this earth
No matter what people say

I'm always going to feel this way
I'll cry everyday for the rest of my life

I still will want to die

I'll keep cutting until i cant cut know more until i have scares all over my body

Know one can help me now not even myself I'm letting myself go drift far far away

I'm about ready to throw my mask away so everybody can see my
sad face

I want you to see how much I'm suffering

I want you to know that I'm not all right

I really do hurt so much inside

But for right now my mask will stay

so nobody can see my sad face

This isn't very good but its all true