Why Do I Fight?

It's been a bad day
The sun hasn't even rose
I don't know if I want to stay
My pain and my anguish grows

I can't do anything right
Everything I do is wrong
I don't know why I fight
I'm apparently not that strong

But I constantly fight my mind
And I'm tired of being me
Perhaps if I try to be kind
I'll be able to open up and see

Until then I'll keep writing
It helps me open up my eyes
And I know why I keep fighting
When I look up at the sky

When I look I just get that feeling
It's coming out letter by letter
The thought sends my heart reeling
Knowing I will get better

A promise to myself