Im Going To Be Real

I try my best
To act like I don’t care
To feel like I’m not bothered
And I don’t need you there

Going about my day
With a smile on my face
Sitting quiet
Denying the tears on my face

Telling everyone
There’s just something in my eye
That there is nothing wrong
Don’t worry I’m just fine

But I quit
No longer can I hide
It’s tearing me apart
And I’m dieing inside

I just can’t
I’m running out of places
I don’t have anymore
Fake faces

So as I’m real right now
I will tell you true
I’m dieing I can’t do anything
Without you

I feel so lonely
Just so incomplete
I’m caught holding my self at night
Just laying there because I can’t sleep

If I sleep I have no reason
For me to wake up
I lost the one that I love
I just give up

Theirs no reason for me in life
You just love to see me fail
Just so you can tell me how much I mess up
When it rains, it hails

So now don’t talk any more crap
Because you know how I feel
And yes these are tears running down my cheek
Yes this pain is real