Everyone Else

I tell you I'm not hungry
you say you don't care
why wont you just leave me alone
you're so unfair

sitting at the dinner table
I'm growing tired and weak
flesh tight to my bones
i don't want to eat

i want to lose weight
food from my body i must deprive
i know its unhealthy
what if i don't want to be alive

i lie about my hunger
starve myself half to death
its always on my mind
haunting my with each breath

all i want is to be beautiful
so i must be thin
i don't care about my lack of energy
or my pale complexion

finally i give in
with each movement of my jaw
i wait until you're not looking
then spit it into a table cloth

with ever passing day
i seem to lose sight of myself
my memory grows short
until i cannot even remember what i felt

i need help
this I'm willing to admit
a new diet and counselor
all of my time I'm willing to commit

i want to be liked
yet i want to be myself
all i was trying to do
was please everyone else