Symbolizing Rose

This is my cry
This is my last plea

I've never felt so lonely
So worthless
Or ashamed
... Of myself.

I'm never right
That's what they tell me
They whisper with their eyes
"You're Nothing"
Am I nothing?
Am I so insignificant?

Tears -
Are my only company
Drowning my emotions
And my Pain

All comfort is lost
My reflection is flawed
I'm a lost cause
And no one can save me ...

I reach out
As far as I can
For just a hand
One easy step to let me out
But there is no one
No One

Everyone leaves me behind
First sign of danger
And away they run

But I need someone
I crave a friend
A listener
A confidant
One who will not leave
Or deceive me
And my secrets

There's no hope
... Ripped away
There's no love
... I'm unworthy
There's no happiness
... I live in pain
A constant nightmare

I no longer have words
To explain
To describe
To define
The emotional;
Shattering pain I endure

I'm pushed by
My pain
When I should be led
By my dreams
... Though
I have no dreams

I have wretched thoughts
To kill
Strip myself of the only
Life I've ever known

Something inside me
Is beating me to death
But no one can see it
I hide it behind my eyes
Beneath my scars
I am my own
Worst enemy

I'm breaking down
And fading
I live with
A shattered soul
That cannot feel
Cannot speak

I hold in my hand
A dying
Wilting Rose
Symbolizing Me.