How Am I Supposed To...(Let Go Of My Best Friend)

How am I supposed to get my message through?
That it’s hurting for me to be loosing you
How am I supposed to make you see?
That the loss of our friendship is killing me
How am I supposed to just let this slide?
When the pain it’s causing is so hard to hide
How am I supposed to just let this friendship go?
When it means more to me than you will ever know
How am I supposed to pick up and move on?
When our friendship is part of my history and where I come from
How am I supposed to just forget all of our plans?
You promised you’d always be the who understands
How am I supposed to take our friendship and forget?
Never thought I’d be consumed by all this regret
How am I supposed to know if it was something I did
Or perhaps words I said, I feel so stupid
How am I supposed to go back to my home?
When it was once filled with us, now all alone
How am I supposed to get rid of those memories?
Or make you listen to all of my apologies
How am I supposed to know what I am even saying sorry for?
When it seems you have given up and closed the door
How am I supposed to …
Is the question that I ask?
I thought friendships were supposed to bring happiness
Not an endless line of tasks
I guess how I am supposed to
I one thing I will never be able to know
I need to deal with these facts
And let my best friend go…