Over the weekend
he ended his pain
found in a tree
a noise, from, he hang...
the rumors spread around school
and everyone was ashamed
of the little things they'd said to him
they felt partial blame
but I know the truth,
the reason he hung himself
had nothing to do with popularity
school challenges or wealth
he did what he did
because there was no other way
to deal with the heartache
I'd caused him that day
So I've lived with that guilt
for just about three years
the hurting unforgotten
never-ending tears
one guy I know
said I'm not to blame
he did make me feel better
he kinda eased the pain
I'm no expert in life
if that's what you expected
this decision was final
the plans were perfected
How about another story
to kinda clue you more in
did i tell you that I'm not a virgin
that sex is another of my sins?
You remember about two years ago
I hooked up with a guy named lane?
the one that was chased from this property
and never seen again?
he's the one I had sex with
many multiple times
OK, maybe just 5
but that doesn't ease my crimes
we didn't use protection
I probably have some disease
not that I truly cared
living is not one of my main priorities
so i lied to you about that
time and time again
you really didn't need to know
I would have dropped charges against him.
Are you ready to quit reading?
well then go ahead..
but I'm going to continue to detail
all that I left unsaid.
here's a subject that I can't refuse
I'd never not mention on it in here
It serves some superior importance
it's message is just so clear.
how can Bryan expect me to accept his as a father
when he didn't want me before?
You can't change your mind on a thing like that
and contradict yourself once more.
As long as I'm a good person in actions
My father was what he wanted to be
but the moment's that I screwed up made
me a stepchild to he..
Maybe he didn't realize it
but I don't have to accept him as a dad!!!
he can't vote himself into a position
my real father has..
no matter what you people say about him,
he's still gonna be in that position
excuse me for wanting to meet him
(being just another imposition)
You can't change my mind on the subject
no once can make that happen
Bryan needs to see that,
someone needs to smack him..
regardless of how many times he claims me
he still sees me different
if the case weren't as i said
he'd change his actions with me during time spent
here's another suggestion
just for future reference
let people answer questions
instead of doing it for them
had you ever done this to me
you'd really be surprised
I'd have a less hardened heart
I'd let you read my eyes
but since you don't listen to me
we'll forever play this game..
too bad I'm not around to do so
it's fun to cause you shame
did you know that i never stopped cutting
well i kinda sorta did
I just do it in places that
are much more easily hid
had you known i snuck out
about 15 times?
how about the fact that
I'm running out of rhymes?
I was going to write more on this
but I'm no longer here
this addressed a few things
i thought i should make clear
i did what i did for a purpose
and I'm very glad I did
too bad I only roamed the earth
as a rotten little kid...
