A new start

whatever...you know what first off i only had one boyfriend and i was hurt from him and you didnt even help me...i was so damn depressed and you couldnt even see it...i never got another boyfriend again since him because you had thrown a fit so i deceided i rather be there for you then worry about my life...you always put your boyfriends first before me...the only guy that you didnt was Trent...I knew trent was good for you...I looked up to him because he treated you so well...i was so happy for you...it scared me though...and now i know why...you lost him not because you wanted to but because you had no choice, God wanted him...i knew you was hurting...it hurt me so much knowing i couldnt help much but be at your side...you told me you dont want anyone else trying to talk to you about him...so i didnt...i didnt want to upset you or lose you but i did anyways...you dont know sh*t about how much i cared...dont go off saying i didnt care...i wasnt in love with trent you was and that is what hurted the most...i didnt know how to take your pain away...i would of done anything to take your pain away if only there was a way but i couldnt find any...you didnt even give me a chance...you gave up on me...you hurt me so much...our friendship didnt last because you didnt hold on...you let me go...i still do care but you dont want me to...do you know how much it hurts when you said i was never your friend anyways...and it hurts even more now that you say i was! you have no clue so dont go off acting like you know what all is going on...you know only what is your feelings...you dont even pay attention to mine! you know what...whatever because your the one that makes my heart ache...i feel like i lost you the way you lost trent...you have no clue...you dont understand just as i dont understand...you screwed me over and i cant stand you anymore...your the reason i cry...i dont cry because i lost you i cry because i have a broken heart from my best friend...she ripped me down my heart like it was nothing and said she didnt care...she left me in the dark...i have been lost for so long and now i am just an image within this sh*ty world...i hate my life just as much as i hate the fact that i lost you! why? i still dont understand to this day! i am just going to end it here because even if i went on your probably wouldnt listen...just like you didnt listen to the times i tried to talk with you but you gave me the cold shoulder!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! a new beginning for you a new end for me! a end to happy days being with my best friend...my lost friend...ad;fkadf;aldfjkadfjkal;djfa;dfkja;df!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! bye