Shards

Maybe everyone knows
that you have no chance with me
but all that they said and told
doesn't compare to the truth.

the warmth of you when your nearby
keeps me warmer than the sun in the sky
but i always think of dark and black
no spark of hope - i felt kind of bad

looking in my mirror, so clear
is that person who doesn't care
no matter how hard i try
the emptiness never left those eyes

was loneliness driving me insane?
i can't even tell when the class bell rings
i'm always so deep in thought
sometimes it's confusing to just talk

wait, its not just about me
but what is truly in your heart?
am i someone you care to see?
or is it better when we're apart?

like when you turn your back to me
and start walking down the stairs
in my heart, i don't want you to go,
but still, you leave me in despair

is your intentions to lead me on?
or is it the other way around?
i'm not sure what's going on
or what's happening to me
you don't do this purposely
but you're slowly placing shards into my lost, dark heart.