Confused

I'm so confused,
I don't know what to do.
My minds so disturbed,
From all i've been through.

It never goes away,
This permanent confusion.
I'm starting to imagine things,
All these crazy illusions.

I don't know how i got like this,
But i know it's not alright.
Dark thoughts on my mind,
I shut myself away from the light.

I'm sick of this world,
It's messing with my head.
If i could have one wish,
I'd wish to be dead.

It's crazy staying here,
Playing this game.
It's making me worse,
I'm going insane.

Everything's so messed up,
So much i hold inside.
I'm a twisted person,
That has so much to hide.

My worlds so dark,
I see no light.
Distant visions haunt me,
And blind my sight.

Nothing's going to change,
It'll never be alright.
It's not going to get better,
My world will never be right.

This pain is so real,
It tears me apart.
It rips right through me,
Destroying my heart.

I don't have a reason anymore,
I have no hopes or dreams.
I can't remember when i last smiled,
Only my recent painful screams.