It's amazing how letting go of something or someone can make you
feel so different, so refreshed, or reborn. i can't believe how long
I've been carrying a burden that heavy. and finally realizing one
morning that I've just had enough of it.
how just one phone call from a dear friend woke me up from a
very long sleep and brought me back to reality. that phone call
served like a very strong kick in the butt which is exactly what i
need to leave the world of madness where I've been in for
the last 9 months. i I've thought of her every word. very few
but powerful enough to make my brain function again, to get me
to think right again. to get me to analyze and accept things that
I've been avoiding to even think about. it has been a very rough
time. the road has been pretty bad. i never expected to fall into a
mud hole that deep and to just stay in there and get all covered
with mud. yup. it has been tough. but now I'm standing up and
clean myself. it's amazing how letting go of a pain you've been
keeping for too long... letting go of someone who caused you an
excruciating pain to a fatal level can make feel so light. i can't
exactly put it into words. finally awake now, i can look back and see
that rough road and that mud hole but not to regret anything... but
to tell myself that... "from now on, that'll be just the road i walked
on once, the mud hole i used to be in, and the mud that used to
cover me". well, what else can i say? things happens, and hearts gets
broken. we may not like the things that happens and we may not be
aware of the reasons why they happen. but what we should try very
hard to remember is that things in our lives gets messed up once in a while
so that we will know how it feels to be in such situations, and so we will
know how to handle such situations, and so we will know how to deal
with it. so.... a lot of things we don't like will still keep on coming to try
and test us, and all that we can do is buckle up, learn and enjoy the ride
no matter how bumpy it can be! and so..... SEAT BELTS PLEASE!!!
