thats how i feel at the moment it's like you took the words out of my mouth, thought some people can't cope with thoughts like that i trully understand, and can relate to how u feel, i'm sorry u feel like this and no-one should have to but many people do, your a greta friends and i've often hurt myself because i'm so desperate to be like you and iris, your really nice and tin and pretty and deserve to be happy but i'll shut up now cos i'm writing a bit too much... sorry i'm a real pain somtimes, if u don't want me to read anything just say, and if you just want some privacy i won't be offended if you say so,

yah I know how you're feeling. i chew gum whenver i want to eat...and its bad...its bad...i dont want to not eat but i really feel fat...i hope things get better for you, just keep writing...sometimes it makes the pain go away for a while..-hayley-