Barely crawling out of my lonely bed,
I sneak a nervous glimpse from the corner of my puffy eye-
Maybe you decided to come back and hold me in the middle of my long cold night
Not a chance-
Unpleasantly wiping the cry away from my lost eyes delivered last night,
I shuffle along to our -MY- hollow kitchen-
Dragging my hopeless feet along the cold sting of the linoleum,
I begin my day without you once again
Another bliss less day without you-
Reading the newspaper-complete with worlds misfortunes- I begin to lighten-
Momentarily-
My coffee, unawakening as ever, reminds me of your polished eyes the day you left-
Rising from the disturbance on the table-
Shudders and goosebumps embrace my lifeless body
Just another incomplete day without you
Making my way to our -MY- living room,
I catch a toasted smell of your presence-
Not a chance
-Just your cologne infused sweater
I can't remove from the back of our -MY- couch
I can't help but take deeper breaths
Maybe I am coolly calm?
-Nope
This aroma suffocates my heart stronger than when you were next to me
Consciously unaware -
my reactions turn me back-
Back to the empty hall-
Just another day without you
Forcing my legs, as if restrained weights-
I unwillingly make my painful way along to our -MY- unfortunate bedroom
Head hanging lower than ever
I can't let those painful, symbolic tears hit my cheeks once more
-I refuse
That empty, cold bed screams torture chamber
Reluctantly, I tensely crawl back in
To go into a peaceful sleep
To wake up to another day without you*
