Shelter

I'm falling down
drowning in my own my sadness
theres no way out
and I'm not thinking right
I'm here in my bed
looking at the ceiling
and crying like a girl
i need a friend
but all i get is loneliness
i want more than a beep
i want more than f.u.c.k.i.n.g words
i want you all

wheres my reason for living?
everybody has one
but theres the problem
Ive lost mine
and maybe Ive lost my mind too
CZ Ive done such stupids things
and you were right
I need a psychologist
and theres something else
that you don't get
you cant understand me
or be in my place
CZ what i do
i don't do it for fun
is for the pain
that is burning my soul

the pain and the hate
have made me this way
don't get me wrong
i really wanna live
be happy and have a family
loving my wife and kids
but the only way that i could resist
is cutting the pain
my cocaine

CZ you are my shelter
you are my air
how could i live
if i don't have you there?
i run to you
when I'm feeling sad
you open your arms
but you hough no one...