Tear It Out

Rape yourself of these former tokens
Discard shattered promises
My erudition raises the finger at experience
War with will for love, against my natural defense

I'm chasing a greater dream
One where love, loves me

I just want to tear it out, out of my skin
A lifetime of sin, finally catching up to the age that I'm in

Tear it out, out of my mind
Everything I thought I'd lost of what I was
Sucker punch me from behind

This thing inside me isn't worth all this pain
Memories of my past drive me insane
Electronic wiring mutilates my brain

I wanted to be all that you believe I am
Cage the monster inside me, doesn't mean I can

Chasing after a dream that could never come true
I went to the edge of the earth for this hurt
That burns a hole in my soul for you

What the Hell have you done
Made me so afraid of what I've become

I've come to redefine the terms "pain" and "suffering"
Since I fell in love with you
You'll never be with me, what was I thinking?

Why would you,
What reason would have to believe I was true?

With my record, I'm selfish, I'm reckless, diseased, and impaired
Even though I gave everything for you, you'll never care

I can't shake the memory of all the things I've done
I don't know if I should stay or turn around and run
I know I'll never change if I just run away

I'll swallow my pride, and to you return
Because they put the spark in me, and now all it does is burn

I want to tear it out
Out of my chest, out of my skin
Tear out what I was to become yours again