Death for Life

With every ounce of strength within me
I cry out your name
These tears pour forever, burning into blood
I ran till I collapsed
I crawled from evening till morning light and till the darkness returned
My vitality slowly came back, i stumbled to my feet prayed for strength and went to find you
I come across you laying down in the grass, pouring out what seems to be your entire life into the sleeves of your coat as your head laid rested upon your crossed arms.
I sat down beside you and saw no skin that had been free of the blade, only your beat red face was free of scars.
I tried my best to comfort you "please let me hold you, I love you,and care about you tell me whats wrong lil one."
"why are you so sad?, come on now, tell me, whats wrong you know you can count on me your my lil puss puss."

I hold you tight and learn i can cry no more, my eyes are blood shot and have nothing more to shed
I kiss your cheek and you look surprised as you look not at me but at the sky and call for me "is that you? baby is that you? please help me through this, i love you so much, please be there for me this time, i miss you so much"

My heart freezes.....
I myself look to the sky and see gates
at my feet another pair of gates you vanish and my world goes black, i see chains, hear screams and see the pearly gates fade away and now my memory becomes clear......
I left your world,
I cried your name for i was asked "who should forgiveness be shown to?"
I remember the cost of such a request....and the tears came for i knew for you to enter the light i had to enter the shadows
spending eternity forever separated

I ran for my one last chance to be with you.....my chance was not granted but i was blessed for that kiss was the thing that comforted you from pain

I couldn't be your guardian angel,
But as i always said you are my angel and i would gladly give it all,
I have finally became that demon my mother set out to raise......
I face years and years of torment and pain forever dying
but i take this with a smile knowing you will have wings and pain will never be upon you