Trying my best

I tried my best to hold my feelings in,
I tried my best to bottle it all up,
I tried my best to cope.
I wish there would be something to cheer me up...

As i move on a step,
Something happens and pushes me back,
back to where I was, deep in my lost minds.
You can say that the worst just keeps on coming.. never ending.

I've also wished
and hoped
and waited
for the times of happiness and freedom...
They never come..

I've been trying my best,
but i can't think of anything more to do with this lonely life of mine,
but to end it now
here
forever.