Not there yet

You need to know,
but you just can't say it,
you care but you cant share,
friends care but no notice,
friends are invisible to you,
and then you are scared,
you looking in the mirror thinking what have i done,
i know they're there,
you see the scares up your arm,
but they cant see the pain you shed,
live is about to end,
and you know your there,
going closer to the light thats all you can see,
traveling forward and all you see,
is bad memories,
brought back by your scared friends,
you know that you cant be there,
a month has gone you know what to do,
you take to many depression pills,
and then to the wrist she took the knife,
all because of that one night.