Running Away

Lying alone at night, in the warmth of my bed
Unable to stop these angry words in my head
You tell me I can’t write; I can’t feel the way I do
But all these feelings that I have come from you.

You’ll never understand the way I feel inside
Because you’ll never see all these feelings I hide
You choose to ignore the fact that I’m falling apart
Just like you chose to ignore me from the start.

But you can’t ignore me forever, I really do exist
I hate the way I am, the way it’s come down to this
But you have to notice me, I’m feeling so alone
I can’t remain here now, this place is not my home.

So tonight, I pack my bags and write you this final poem
Hoping you’ll understand I need to be on my own
Maybe you won’t read this, because it’s just too real
You always hated my poetry. But it’s the way I feel.

One last kiss for you, dad. Mom, here’s a hug.
I’m sorry that I wasn’t ever quite good enough
But my life is calling, I’m off to find my soul
I can’t stay here any longer if you’re in control.

I hope you find this quickly. You need to understand
I couldn’t stay somewhere where I can’t be who I am
So I’m off to see the world, it’s where I need to be
I’m leaving you all behind. I’m going to be me.