My Bleeding Words ...

I totally need a new title ... :-/

How do I begin this?
There's no perfect place to start
I guess I'll just start writing
Solely from the heart ...

I'm really so alone
And I no longer have the strength
To fight these petty problems
And keep them at arm's length

Now they just consume me
Taken over my every move
Dug inside my broken mind
Hidden in every groove

Optimism is something I lack
Though I try so hard to see
The good in things I know
Could never be real for me

Friends? Sure I've got a few
But they never hear my cries
I guess they're not friends at all
Our relationships are based on lies

I turn to myself for comfort
Sometimes strangers I don't know
I wish it wasn't like that
But I have nowhere else to go

I confide in sharp objects
And tell the stories on my wrists
And no one really knows
That these scars I have exist

I've tried and tried to express
The feelings I endure
Desperately searched to find
A medication, or just a cure

It's not a chemical imbalance
It's simply just luck of the draw
Depression takes control of me
And I abide by its laws

I want to escape so badly
I scream, I cry, I beg, I plead
My life is such a waste
Now through pathetic words, I bleed ...