That fateful day

I look now around me
alone in a darkened room
not a happy feeling
more a feeling of gloom

the room is dark and dirty
no light except one candle
and the feeling i have now
i really cannot handle

this room gives an odd feeling
makes you shiver in fear
and suddenly you know
that you don't want to be here

suddenly i feel a presence
entering the room
it brings light into the darkness
feeling into the gloom

i look up at this spirit
half man and half ghost
of all the things in the room
its him i fear the most

he sits on a throne
gazing down at me
i look him in the eye
and its sadness that i see

he opens his mouth to speak
and through me runs a chill
i think i know who he is
and i feel quite a thrill

now i realize
as I'm gazing up at him
i am only in this room
because of all my sin

he gazes down at me
with his deep and saddened eyes
i see his son upon that cross
and hear his anguished cries

i never did believe in god
to me he didn't seem real
but now i would change all that
if i could only feel

there is an eerie silence
as i wait for him to speak
he finally opens his mouth
and asks me what i seek

i say that i am sorry
and falls down to my knees
he looks at me with those saddened eyes
and listens to my pleas

i made a mistake
but even worse i made a choice
and now because of me
thousands have no voice

there are two doors on this room
slowly now they open
hes going to send me through one
its the light one i am hoping

i see all of those i killed
dancing in the light
but that door slowly closes
hiding them from sight

you don't deserve to look at them
you shouldn't be able to see
for with each one that you killed
you also killed me

i look at the dark door
and i hear anguished screams
its like always sleeping
and living those bad dreams

once again i meet his gaze
and i know my fate
and now my tears fall to the floor
as i silently wait

one again he looks at me
with those saddened eyes
and the next thing that he says
takes me by surprise

"my dear child i love you but i must say goodbye"
i was not expecting
to see my good lord cry

he says he must ask question
he says that he must know
and even if i wont answer
my thoughts will already show

when you made that choice
and you felt that power
did you know you would go to hell
for crashing a plane into that tower