Luisa will you please,
Give me a squeeze.
Luisa will you please,
I’m on my knees
For you...
Luisa I implore,
I need love galore.
I want ye
to take me
I want ye
To make me
Feel lucky
Again
I’m here all alone
With you on my mind
Talking with you but on the phone
Telling me you have no time
I’m in the back of your head
Always there
So you do something else instead.
Outside, the sun in bright
A bunch of people
In a circle, tight.
Kicking, bending, smacking
The ball around
As I sit near with you.
You stand and enter the group
And I’m there, always there
For you. - Without you.
It feels like last year
When I touched you
And I had no fear
Of not getting a reaction.
You never let off, that you cared
I had no clue
And now I’m scared
cause its happening again.
The only way I knew, is because you told me,
One random day.
Otherwise, I would have forgotten you
Thinking you did not like me
Never would
Never could.
Again it seems, in it again
Seems like I’ll only be a friend
Cause I don’t know
I can’t know.
This year, were together.
It should feel that way.
You of course feel it
I love you all the time
I show you all the time
I think of you all the time,
Though I can’t show u that.
I want to feel it too
I want to feel loved,
Like I love you.
I feel as though I’m being shoved
away from you by the present
by the now
i live in the back,
in the forever, never now.
in the always, not the today.
the avalaible whenever.
Time will pass,
Summer will come
But it wont last
after fun, and yum,
school will return
And this time it will burn
For you will be in anther place
Country, far aways.
Precious little time for all things good
For responsibilities and chores
And friends and fun.
I love you, and even if it ends,
Because I cant see you,
You will be the one I love the most
And you will remain a friendly ghost
In my heart.
I’m tearing, crying, my face is dripping
To think of ever losing you,
But it seems inevitable,
It seems I lose you everyday.
Never seeing you, never knowing you care
Never time to feel the love that's there.
I know I love you, and know you love me too
But there’s no time you want to spend
Because I’m always there in your mind,
And the time is now.
It feels like you don’t like me
Don’t want to be with me
You see something interesting
And you go do it. Even if I’m there
Never for me.
You see someone; you jump to your feet
And run to talk to them
Never for me
You say I’m part of this mindset,
The family mindset
Part of a group
That never ceases to exist
Never ceases to care.
It’s true.
I won’t.
But I’m bleeding.
My heart and mind are cut,
Open unprotected for you
And each time I’m ignored
Deeper is the blade of pain.
I hate being of this group
Because I cant always be there
If time didn’t exist, it would be fine
But it does, and it’s flowing fast.
If you allot an eternity to see me,
Because u feel that’s how long ill be there,
Then when an eternity is cut off at one year,
Then planning will go haywire.
I love you Luisa.
I love you so much.
I love you more than I want to,
For the balance is tipping,
And it hurts.
