How can I find her when my eyes have been closed,
how can I find her when I was blind at everything I opposed,
how can I persist to be a man when I cant face her,
when all she was I loved and all she became I hated,
I lost fate in love for I tried to hold on but the seams ripped open,
kisses were a token of my affection and undying yearn,
passions were the result of my tender fires burn,
love wasn’t at my reach and I stretched for desire,
the more I stretched the more my tears died out my passions fire,
I loved her soul mind and every inch of her being,
but I loved her even more without the privilege of seeing,
for she was time zones away from my natures grasp,
and it seems that I swam though tears of eternal laps,
I saw her in my sleep where I craved her touch,
they soon became nightmares for I never seen her flesh,
eyes red to cry for sorrow became my every emotion,
I mounted the pain and rode out its every path into corrosion
but I came to the conclusion that I would never hear her laugh,
the ending was a fight for love and my heart fell onto the mat,
love died before birth like an abortion I refused to conceive,
but I died with the love for pain I refused to breathe,
I never allowed to grow and I never gave it light,
therefore I start at the beginning how can I find her when I never gave love sight...
