Painful addiction

I found this new friend
he was always there for me
when i was feeling bad
he filled my heart with glee

he always eased my pain
i felt like i had worth
but little did i know
he came with a curse

every time you go to him
its harder to walk away
you always say you want to leave
but you wont, you'll always stay

you see he has this power
to hold onto his friends
and he'll slowly guide them
until they meet their ends

you can tell him anything
and he'll never tell a soul
but every time you go to him
he makes you less whole

you don't ever realize that
until its just to late
I'll hide him away from me
but he will always wait

he sits in the darkness
and listens to what i say
waits until i take him out
then on my emotions he will prey

i say that he helps me
but i know he makes it worse
i want to ignore him
but i turn to him first

but now its time to stop
ruining the life i made
ill send my friend far away
because hes only a sharpened blade

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