Mommy please

Mommy please don't you cry
your baby is right here by your side

don't blame yourself for what I did
how could you know? it was so well hid

I prided myself on masking my lie
I never wanted you to have to see me cry

your life was already too complicated
I know you felt alone and frustrated

I didn't mean to make things worse
but the circumstances I can't reverse

I wish I could explain how I feel
but unless you experience it, it is hard to know it's real

mommy please know that I tried to fight
I fought off the voices with all my might

but somewhere along the course of life
they took over and I guess I lost sight

suddenly everything became so hard
the voices inside tore me apart

slowly they took over my mind
until there was no trace of me left to find

I know when you look, you think you see me
but my body is just an image of what I used to be

you need to let go of that part of me
my body may be there, but me? I am free

so mommy please don't you cry
because I will always be here by your side

think of me when the wind starts to blow
and when you look to the stars know that I am their glow