I’m afraid of what to say or do how to react or feel to what i see & hear…
My mind is packed with all this crap that disturbs me anyways, see there is two types of friends…
The vile and insignificant creatures that feed on is your pain, suffering having others dislike you when your not there all time pal or even have this rage that is bottled up so tight when loosened fury just takes over there body with pure hatred…
Then the ones that finally go to you to cheer you up when your heart is broken instead of you doing something really stupid to jeopardizes your friendship with them they really love you no matter what the journey is there just like family except not actually blood related…
Then they see sorrows rain down from your tired worn out face as your thinking day and night of relationships being real or fake? Why have a commitment if they’re just going to break your delicate heart...
Because they say ill always love you know matter what your decision is. So you trust your judgment so you say i love you too cause you feel the same way. Then all of a sudden they stop saying those words you loved to hear from them so your confused and depressed suspecting it’s you? Am I unattractive or is there some one else?
Then those heart breaking words come out “i think we should break up its not you its me†or “I liked it better when we were friends.†But you pause because you’re concern because you thought it was going well. Then you say to yourself over and over they were the one never imagining they could do such great damage to you heart then acting like it meant nothing to them…
Feeling alone now cause it was your “one true love†and you could love no other but you can you just don’t want to…
So you still become there friend hoping they come back but it kills you inside because you still love them, so you try to so hard to hide it, feeling like your carrying all this weight on your back because your not letting it go…
So little by little your better- off talking and hanging out with your friends when it just dawns on you out of no where “I’m over them and i don’t need anyone to complete my happiness†feeling more relaxed because the weight on your back has fallen off now sure about how you really feel about them, your there friend now! They’ll come back too you someday if they were really your one true love.
