I'll Try To Smile

I'll try to make this one happy,
I'll even try to smile.
A little bit of happiness,
But only for a short while.

I'll try to write about love,
And how much i love life.
I'll try no write about cutting,
Blades or knives.

I don't know if it will work,
But all i can do is try.
I'll try to forget everything bad,
And try not to cry.

Who am i kidding,
How could I write about happiness and love.
When all i can think about,
Is when I'll leave for the heavens above.

Even if i try,
I just won't turn out right.
I've tried many time before,
Alone in my room at night.

I wish it could i change,
Because i don't want to be like this.
I hate having to live this way,
Happiness is what i miss.