God where are you

They tell me that he loves me
I know it isnt true
He never ever listens
He dont say I love you

I tried to prey a few times
But answers I got none
I tried to do the right thing
But in the end I run

So god if you are up there
Why do you hate me so
Is it because I lost you
Or because you let go

I wont pretend Im perfect
I done some bad things
But not enough to feel this
Oh please just let me in

Ive come to the conclusion
You dont exist at all
Your just a dumb illusion
Who doesnt care at all

So christians if you see him
then tell him that Im sad
He went and freaking left me
Though I was never bad