She don't know...

Sure it’s true she is blood,
She will always be my mom,
With this said she thinks she knows me,
But that is where she is wrong...

She thinks I’ve got it together,
She thinks I’m strong as glue,
But I don’t have the strength to tell her,
That it’s all an act I threw...

She don’t know how much I need her,
She don’t know how much I cry,
I bet you that she’d never know,
All the times I tried to die,

She don’t know how much she hurt me,
She don’t know I’m torn apart,
With all she did, with all she said,
She has broken all my heart,

The funny thing is, she thinks I’m happy....

She don’t know how much I love her,
Or how much that I crave her love,
I’ve built a wall, to protect me,
So now when she pushes, is when I shove.

She don’t know how hard I try,
How I push until the end,
To make her proud, to hear her praise,
For this, I’ll surely back-wards bend...

She don’t know I can’t live without her,
She don’t know I fear abandonment,
How much it hurts when she chooses him,
When all I want is a parent.

She don’t know how much she hurt me,
She don’t know I’m torn apart,
With all she did, with all she said,
She has broken all my heart,

The funny thing is, she thinks she knows me...

*poem for my mom...i wish i had the stregth to give it to her...*strength