I sit here wondering why
Why I have to sit here and lie
I don’t care what anyone thinks
I just act normal and throw some winks
I roll up my sleeve and with the knife
I cut down my wrist and destroy my life
People don’t understand how I feel
They don’t know every night I fall and kneel
People tell me I do it for attention
I tell you you’re wrong with every intension
Now my arm is scared and scratched
All this is pain is forever attached
I tell everyone I`m sorry for what I`ve done
But when I do I feel like I could run
Run away from all my lies and the mistake
I feel my life is nothing but fake
I want to die and never return to this world
I need to gather the friends I've hurled
Tell them how I feel with ever breath
Tell them why I'm ready for death
I ponder on the times I’ve destroyed them all
I couldn’t ever pick them up when they fall
She stole my heart to do what she wanted
I told her how I felt and confronted
She never trusted me as a loving type of way
But for some reason she tells me different today
She comes to me with a reaction of change
All of this I really cannot bring into range
I need someone to tell me if I should trust her again
Should I give her one last chance to start and begin?
I still love her for some reason and I don’t know why
Tell me should I trust or let my feelings die
