You Made Me Die

I hate this place,
somebody take me away,
I can't take it anymore,
I don't want to be here another day.

My parents aren't helping any,
my close friends are leaving me,
no one can help,
I just want to be set free.

My parents don't approve of my friends,
just because most are guys,
I'm never going to hear the end,
I feel as if my heart has died.

I can't make decisions on my own,
I can't learn from my mistakes,
I have to be this happy young girl,
put on a smile that is fake.

I can't be myself around my parents,
only around people who know the real me,
people who care and try to understand,
my hurt and pain they see.

I feel as if there is no end,
most of my smiles, they are fake,
my parents try to help,
they says it's for my own sake.

But they have no idea,
the hatred they bring,
I wish someone could hear my cry,
which I yell and scream.

I know I've made mistakes,
but I've learned from them,
but no one believes it,
all I need is a real friend.

Why am I so lonely?
why doesn't anybody care?
if they say they do,
then why is no one ever there?

Why can't I be happy?
just like everybody else,
I don't like this feeling,
I'm always angry at myself.

I can't go out with just a friend,
an adult must be there,
I'm not the presidents daughter!
I wish they'd understand or care.

They don't know how much it hurts,
I blast music to block out cries,
they just can't see,
that they have made me die.

* this poem was dedicate to my parents....but I don't really feel this way anymore..but please vote and comment....I'd appreciate it....thanks...love ya...ayna..*

©lisha 2005