I sit here
listening to myself-
I'm on the phone with you.
I can hear life on the other end
The sound of backround noises
our silence is long as if distance drove it out
your teenage voice breaks into
the akward silence.
I can sense in your voice
the time we're spent apart.
now the future holds highschool -
A challange
A game.
Our long-distance-relationship will be just
Another challange
A hurdle in the game.
Our past was happy
Brought me a smile every day
Knowing that you loved me
And us together
Always drove out the nasty grey.
Now you decide about us.
I hear you talk,
But my mind races around.
Do we want what we had?!
I do.
Do i want what is coming?!
No.
I hear you again,
Your voice reashures me
I had you for so long
Now i hear what i dread most.
The word 'Apart' echoes in my ears
In my mind
In my heart.
I hear you say
I love you.
I knew it was real.
It wasn't puppy love like everyone said
We had real love.
But even though we're 'Apart'
I still love you very much,
I always will.
I hear you say my name,
Questioning my existance.
My eyes swell with tears; my heart with pain
And i choke out 'Hello'
My heart aches even more
You left it at that.
I let you know how much you mean to me.
We part & get off the phone.
The hurdle is gone
I've cleared the jump.
The relationship is over...
But just not quite.
Yhe pain remains and your picture spins in my mind.
Now, there's only one thing left to do.
One thing that will take a long time.
I need to learn
How
To
Cope.
(please tell me what you think about this...PLEASE comment)
