What Do I Deserve?

So many friends
Such support, such love
Help for my downs
Love for my hates.

But what do i deserve?
Why do i recieve such love?
Who is pretending?
Am i a deserver?

I look around
Gifts and friends
None of which is deserved
Love that is un-returned
I feel so dirty

But what do i deserve?
Why do i recieve such love?
Who is pretending?
Am i a deserver?

I see the one i dream of
His cold heart flickers
At my face
He turns away from me
Rejected by death
What have i done?

But what do i deserve?
Why do i recieve such love?
Who is pretending?
Am i a deserver?

I have no respect
Yet i am
I take them for granted
Un love them

But what do i deserve?
Why do i recieve such love?
Who is pretending?
Am i a deserver?

So i close my eyes on life
Lift myself to death
I love every friend
My soul is filthy
I hate my burned life

But what do i deserve?
Why do i recieve such love?
Who is pretending?
Am i a deserver?

So i deserve nothing of which i posess
I return the love now
I accept none
Forget me now
But hold onto those deservees
Of which i am not.