Just Wanna Go Back

JUST WANNA GO BACK

why... did i have...
to meet... the real life?
so much suffering
so much pain
I'm tired of struggling
let me pass away
why... can't i...
just be... a child?
is God mad with me?
i just wanna be a happy kid
but I'm so confused that i can't see
the place where my happiness is

i just wanna go back
i just wanna be a kid again
go to my home
and run trough the stairway
i don't wanna be a grown up
i don't wanna be a smart guy
i just wanna see the sunrise
and smile

i am feeling so lonely
i am feeling so sad
but the worse thing is that
i don't know why
i want a target to follow
i want some air to breath
the sadness surrounds me
and the emptiness is killing me
this isn't what i wanted to be
resting just when i bleed
freeing myself from the pain
cutting my skin
this is not supposed to be
i was a normal kid
i am a normal kid

i wanna feel the pain
but the pain of falling down
while I'm running to the first base
i wanna cry again
but cry CZ they didn't get me
that Nintendo's game
maybe
just maybe
i could smile again
while I'm watching Tom & Jerry
like other days