Why is it at night i just feel like busting out crying,
i wasn't even thinking of anything. Something just felt wrong and it scares me.
All of a sudden i feel like crying.
I want to know why i feel like this.
I want to know the answer.
Is it cause of the fact that i almost killed myself, or the fact that i left so many people that were my friends behind.
Or the fact that i still want to kill myself but people try to stop me, but most of the time it doesn't help.
My friends say that they will do they same, or hurt themselves if i do, but its hard to believe them when u know that they don't care.
When your boyfriend says the same things and you still don't think he will hurt himself if i do, but i don't want to find out, cause when i do, it might be too late.
I don't want anyone to hurt themselves because of what i did. When they say that they will that just makes me keep more stuff from them.
My other friends made me feel like i had someone that actually like or love me.
But now they are gone, the only people that i like and could stop me are gone.
And every time i think about them i think about the day i almost killed myself and i cry, and i hate it.
Sometimes i just feel like bursting out crying.
I cant think of a reason in my head, but in my heart i know i must have a reason.
I don't know if it is because i feel like i am hated or because i feel like no one wants to be around.
I don't know if it because i feel like killing myself, I never know.
I wonder if it because i see things that remind me of how i feel,running away, or killing myself.
I just wish i knew what i am feeling and why.
I wish Some one who knew would tell me why, i feel it in me, but i can never find out.
