Stuck

I can’t continue
I cannot go on
I wont cease to love
My once special someone

I am so tired
I am so stressed
I miss being loved
I miss being caressed
I long to love again
I remember, you said we would wed
I am crying, my face is all red
I will not love anyone instead
I am stuck with you in my head

I see you everyday
But the label drives us away
It says “just a friend”
I thought our love would never end,
But now I am one
I am having no fun
I think of you all day
I am trying to find a way
for this love to be once more
For it is you alone I adore

It kills me to see you
Yet it makes me happy like the love is new
Then the pain that follows that knows its done
Makes me want to place to my head a gun
Fire away
For like this I cannot stay
In a middle of this emotional fray

I want to goto you like old times
To confess my sins, worries and crimes
But now my only worry is you
One cant cry about one’s hurt
To the person who is causing it…

My life is a constant fit
Torn between living in hurt
Or deciding to treat you like dirt.
Maybe the only way is to say ‘I hate you’
But I don’t
I love you still
And always will
I’m stuck in a ‘stand-still’

I cannot continue living this way
Make the pain go away….