We have known each other for a long time.
We have been through so much.
And it is ending so soon.
We have both cried and laughed.
And now it will never happen again.
I have hurt you too many times to count.
But what I cannot count is how many times I have apologized,
How many tears I have cried,
How many night I have woken up and reached out for you.
I told you I loved you,
And you ignored it,
You crumpled the words up like it was garbage.
I was so upset.
I wanted to punch the wall!
I wanted to take a chair and throw it through the window!
But I also wanted to crawl under the table and die.
I wanted to go and hide,
And cry my eyes dry.
Is it right to be angry and sad at the same time?
I just don't know.
I have thought about you almost everyday,
For the past six years.
I will still think of you after you leave,
But I am sure you will not.
God, I want to murder someone,
Just kill them in cold blood with no mercy.
But I want to muder myself too.
Or fall asleep and never wake up again,
Even though you are leaving,
I still feel funny.
I feel like you have already left me,
And forgot about me.
Just like you will very soon.
