I know that the person I am and the person
I want to become are two very distinct things
It’s not going to be easy to choose
Who I want to become
Making the right decisions through life
Will not be simple yes’s or no’s
It will be hard and confusing to distinguish
Whether it will do me good or harm in the end
That means that sometimes I will have let go
Of things that I might become fond of
Even though at that time I might not want to let them go
I know it will be for the best
It is still hard not to cry, whenever I reminisce in my thoughts
Of the things I cherished and left behind
But now I realize that after all the things I had to go through and suffer
I have been able to shield myself
From all the pain I have feel
And get over the things i know i cannot erase from myself
I accept the changes with an open heart
With the hope that tommorow can
Be a fresh new start
I am aware that I have all the painful memories buried deep inside
Even though I have forced myself to try not remember them
I am aware that they still linger deep inside restless
Awaiting to torment me whenever iI let my guard down
Never wanting to let me forget the pain and suffering inside
