Should NOT Care !

I know I should not love you
I really should not care
I should not spend all my days
Wishing you were there

How can I care so much?
But yet I figure you care none at all?
I always believed you would be the one to catch me whenever I would fall

I can not help but wonder
All about that one guy
Mainly, because I am now left
With such an unanswered why.

Because I guess it’s time
For me to say goodbye & maybe finally move on
I am not for sure But
I think your love for me may be all gone.

It feels like centuries
Since we have been separated
And every night I think of you
It leaves me tossing, turning, and so aggravated.

And over him I get so mad
I may even scream, I sometimes yell
But every night lying in bed awake
I sit up and on him dwell.

I think of his smile
And how he touched my heart
I think of that day
For no reason we got torn apart.

I miss his laugh
And his cute stare
I miss him so much &
I miss how much we use to for each other care.

But now that’s all done with
And for “WE” are left out in the cold
I know forever my heart
He alone will always hold.

I could talk to him
& express my ever thought, ultimate dreams
No one else knows but
There was so much more love to us then it really did seem.

I wish to let go
And to not anymore at all hang on
I hope your memory of me
Will never be completely gone.

As my eyes swell up
& they fill up with these long overdue tears
I am now all alone and to myself
I have no one to share my fears.

I always wonder
“Why isn’t he ever there? “
Then I think why I wonder
I should not even care.

But As I think of all those times
There is no way, in hell, for me to not anymore care
& no matter what I do
I will always wonder why you are not there.

For as long as I live
Without you for that matter
My love for you will stay strong
I promise not to let it shatter.

I do care where you are
I do wish you were with me
But I can promise although we are apart
My love for you will last eternity.