Nothing is the Same

Couldn't sleep last night...
I was crying way too damn much for peace
I'll tell you why;
My parent's just need a maid.
and I'm not good enough for them.
It needs to change.

Nothing is the same
No nothing is the same.
I'm bleeding blood I've never seen.
I don't recognize the girl I see in my reflection
The scars on my legs ruin that perfect picture of perfection...

I once lived in a house...
among a family.
I never felt much of anything
but my knees hurt from kneeling
on the floor I was scrubbing
I used to have too much food
and was yelled at for costing too much money
At least they let me wash their windows
because now I'm stuck with nothing...

Nothing is the same
no nothing is the same.
I'm crying tears that don't belong to me.
I don't know that worn down girl
who hides herself under a mask.
The beauty that used to be alive
is shrouded by the flask.

I don't like this life
but there's nothing I can do for now.
I need to stand up tall
and learn to walk without a hand
pulling me along.

Because nothing is the same.
No nothing is the same
My life is circling around a drain;
getting closer to the fall.
I no longer care,
I can't allow myself to feel anything
except the knife that runs along my skin
because nothing, no nothing is the same.