Why even bother

You spit fire into my soul
and with that fire
I am made whole
all the feelings come deep within
many other people would call them sin
burning desires
take control of me
unfulfilled dreams and wishes
leave me wanting more
empty promises make me ask
why even bother?
when you don't even care
you don't even love me
because of you I'm not even scared
to face my emotions
and take a look at all
my devotions
you thought you had the best of me
but I've been hiding my thoughts
so secretly
you sang to me so sweetly
but wounded my soul internally
why even bother
when you don't even care
you don't even love me
because of you I'm not even scared
to face my emotions
and take a look at all my devotions
why can't life go our way
the way we want it to everyday
you made me believe Iwas something I'm not
things like this make me want to ask
why did you even bother
you don't even care
you don't even love me
because of you
I'm no longer scared
to face my emotions
take a look at all my devotions
now don't even bother